It feels like it's been ages since I last blogged! I guess this has become one of my guilty pleasures! So, I'm alright, all is well. I'm on top of things, well, a little. It seems like the more I read and do my work, the more I have to do, and the more I see just how I can never be completely on top of things, I guess that's uni, or college :) I just finished doing a draft for a paper due on Wednesday, at least I'm not doing it the night before so yay for me!
Nothing out of the ordinary school week has been going on. Except last weekend I went to visit Stirling Castle, Linlithgow Palace, and the Falkirk Wheel. I went with Pomona people, a few of us, it didn't rain, so we had a great time! This weekend I hung out with a friend from church, we went to see a movie. And I am absolutely embarrassed to say this but yes I went to watch Lion King in 3D ha ha, and it was awesome OMG! I've slowly become a real part of Hope Church. I had forgotten how great it is to talk to people who understand the foundation of your life, and to just be me...grateful for that!
These past few weeks, have made me realize how coming to Edinburgh this semester was a second chance for me. It's as if I get to start college/uni all over again. Many different, random people would just absolutely deny that I'm a third year, insisting I'm a first year. And it's not because I'm quiet, that I definitely am not, lol. It kept coming up until my spirit quickened and in my heart I realized, it's not that I look 17 (maybe I do?? ;) ), or that I act like a first year, but it's the Lord telling me that I got my second chance. Don't get me wrong, I have enjoyed my two years of college, but they have been difficult. Being away from home was fine for me, but being away from home and friends, and people like me, was big. It was a complete cultural shift, everything was suddenly different, and I had not been prepared for that. I chose to retreat into a shell. If my friends back home had seen me they would not have recognized me. I was very quiet in class, scared even. I barely had any clubs I was committed to...and I felt small in a big, powerful US of A. I ascribed myself to the stereotypes associated with someone like me, and it didn't help that Americans talk very confidently, and they talk a lot, generally. So this was me, not good enough, satisfied with a B+ and thrilled at an A-, in a shell.
But once I got here, I found myself again. I found the inner voice and the confidence and the belief in myself. I decided to be Blessing, regardless of the standards people have set for me, or their expectations...I chose to come out of my shell. Oh the thrill of just saying something smart in class! Or of taking a huge risk or asking a question, or just knowing that I can do anything. And even better, the power to dream big, knowing that God, the almighty one, is living in me, priceless. So yeah, I'm a fresher again :) and I'm doing it right, doing it big...sooo happy! If you need a second chance, there's one for you too, you just have to ask, and not give up!
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