Make me proud...

Hi all...it's been a while, school work, and thoughts about school work are keeping my hands pretty full. By now, all I want is to be done with this semester, and to be in my beloved country...but I have to get through exams to get there, ah well, it is well!

Just been reflecting...can you imagine the day you were born? How you were as a little kid, did you cry a lot, or were you the quiet and well-behaved little one? No-one's told me, but it's pretty obvious that I was the quiet, well-behaved little angel that everyone absolutely adored...I mean can you imagine Princess Bibi throwing tantrums? Ha ha, yess! My mum tells me of an occasion when she went to visit her mother in another mission away from ours...with baby blessing safely strapped to her back. Baby was quiet all along the journey, but as soon as we got to the house, she started screaming, crying really badly, and as mama tried to get into the house, baby would hold the door with her arms, preventing her from doing so. Sadly, mama had to turn back and leave, baby blessing won...maybe I should join Politics, such persuasiveness is in my blood lol...

Mothers are so precious...there is no love quite like a mothers love. Who would carry a child for nine months...the child whose presence in your body would cause significant changes, some which last a lifetime...yet as soon as that baby meets the eye, she loves it more than anything else in the world! Mothers are the most powerful people in the world...why? Because they influence a child's childhood...they can make it or break it...children look up to them and would do anything to please them, whether good or bad. They are the first form of love that a baby knows, mother's love. Mother's are the strong water...just as strong water moves down a river and smooths the rocks, making them round, removing all the corners and imperfections, so is a mother...They have the story of our lives...they watch from day one, and they remember...they see you as you grow, and they marvel at what great a fruit came out of their womb!

A mother's greatest prayer...is that her baby would make her proud. I can hear it in my mother's voice when she speaks to me on the phone...I can see it in her eyes when I stand on stage and speak or preach...I can sense it in her body when she hugs me...and when she talks about me to her friends, you hear the defined tone of pride-she's my baby... Sometimes we cause them grief, our mothers, sometimes we disappoint them...and on the outside they stand in strength, but on the inside, the heart weeps...

I don't want my mama to cry...I want her to rejoice! I want her to look back on the day I was born and say, "God you remembered me..." You see, we the fruits, have the power to bring something new, to our mothers...they, as the tree, are grounded and set, but we go places, and we are changed, transformed...we grow...and when we come back, glowing...imagine the look on your queen's face saying, you make me proud. Hope you make your mama, or dad...or whoever holds that place in your heart, proud for days!

Blessing is thankful...

Hi lovely people! Life has been good over here, no snow and the temperatures starting from 8degrees Celsius! Wonderful winter it has been. Sadly, I can't say the same for some of my classes. I feel like I'm being forced to regurgitate information, for example in my Law course, and I have to study these thick, heavy textbooks. Someone rescue me ha ha, with exams coming up, and dreams for Law School in mind, I bite my lip and drag myself, as is always the need, to lectures and to tutorials. 90% of success is showing up right, well in some situations, once you get there, might as well do what needs to be done.

So Thursday was thanksgiving, why not dedicate this blog to what I'm thankful for! There are so many things that we take for granted every single day, like the sun, and life even. So today, I wanna say what I'm thankful for...

I am so thankful for the life that I have...I don't deserve to live while someone else my age is gone...all the good things I have, like good health, and love...I did nothing to have, but just by God's grace I'm alive, and happy... :) sooo life, and more life!

We are so blessed to have a big family! Can you imagine I have 10 nieces and nephews! Wow wow, I'm so grateful to have those lovely children, like these two adorable ones here...the other one looks like me isn't? I'm the aunty, soo proud and so thankful, I just pray blessings upon each and every one of them!

Now wouldn't life be soo boring without friends? Yes definitely...I'm soo grateful for years, for all the people in my life I can call my friends. I know it's not always easy being someone's friend, yes I know sometimes it's a challenge being my friend too...but I'm grateful to God, and to them, that I've never woken up and found myself completely alone, there's always someone I can call, or text, or have a meal with, or walk with, or pray with...I love inspiring people and being there for people, I love being a blessing and being the unshakable pillar of strength...but that doesn't mean I don't also need encouragement, infact I think I need it more so that I can give to others what I receive...so friends, masanta- love these girls...besty, sisters, mothers, brothers, classmates, my sahwiras...I love you all, and thank you, for being my friends!

I have the most awesome adviser on Pomona's campus, yes...Professor Kuehlwein is just a gift from God...he believes in me, and he's there as a great resource, encouragement, and his family is kinda like my own family in Claremont...soo thankful for him!

And to the most awesome family...these guys are just the best...I wouldn't be me if it wasn't for them in my life...what for 5 brothers, who sometimes pretend to be evil, e.g throwing cushions at you if you smirk during a movie, or teasing you over your singing oh my...but really are such big, warm hearted men, I see them and, don't tell them I said this, they are the most loyal, humble, hardworking...loving men in our side of the world...and did you know I have a sister, yes, love her to bits...she's a woman of strength and courage, just like I'm growing to be. Thankful for my family!!!

And I'm thankful for....

My mama...a woman of character and strength. She believes in me, always has...and she taught me the greatest lesson of my life, she introduced me to Jesus...I am what I am because of this woman. God bless you mama!

Saving the best for last, unfortunately I can't put up a picture of Him, I have none :( But just look at me, and you...and you'll see the imprints of His love. My oh my, where would I be in my life without this man!!! I would be dead, figuratively and literally! Sometimes, there just isn't a good enough reason to wake up...or live, but when I think of Him, I can do all things! Who can use a person like me? Who can change a lifestory like he continually does mine...and most importantly, who will never ever fail you, never ever leave your side...? My Jesus, and I'm most thankful for the knowledge of Him, and our relationship...I pray it grows even stronger every day...

Next year I'll be saying thankful for my boyfriend!! lol, just kidding...Happy Thanksgiving, Happy Holidays! :)

November...are we there yet?

Hi friends :) 2 weeks away from this page, and it felt like something has been missing from my lovely life! So the past few weeks have been nothing out of the ordinary, except for the fact that the pressure of exams is beginning to increase...exams are such a big deal here, unlike at Pomona where they can constitute about 20%, depending on the course, here it's 40, 60%! So this young lady here, better get her study grove back on...now!

Last week the "Pomonians" (as our History professor calls us), went to Edinburgh Castle with our director, Tom. It was a lovely day, we had sunshine can you handle! We got to see a lot of interesting things at the castle, and if anyone ever asks you, the oldest building in Edinburgh city is the Saint Margaret chapel, built in the twelfth century, I believe. Check out the pictures. Also, this weekend, my sister-in-law, who lives in Wolverhampton, came to visit with my two adorable nieces. It felt a lot like Visiting Sunday in boarding school, only there was no bringing of maputi and juice this time haha. Life is so good, can't believe it has been three years since I left High School, I still think of it sometimes though. So, I spent this weekend with my family, talked, laughed and got to be a tour-guide :) The homesickness is beginning to settle in a little. I really miss Pomona, Cali, and Abundant Living. Last full month in Edinburgh, I better make the most of it hey...

So the answer to my question, are we there yet, is no, but we're getting there. Am I at the point where I can say I am fully grounded in the word? Am I fully satisfied with my life? Am I doing everything I was called and made to be? The answer is no, I'm not there yet...but everyday, the more I look at Jesus and follow Him, the more I become like Him. The more I work, the better the results I get. Some days I wake up, get slothful and decide not to do my part-I end up hating myself afterward, but the work will still be waiting for me tomorrow. I just want to succeed, I just want to be the best me I could ever be, I want to use my talents...I want God to use me...and I want to be a blessing...I'm not there yet, but I have hope, one day, my Daddy will look at me, smile and say- yes my daughter, you are finally here :)

love and blessings to you all!